Trying again, if that's possible at this point 3.4.09

Didn’t seem to help to try the first cycle. I’m elated at my first almost negative HPT, praying for AF to come. Read that sentence again. Who would have thought? Elated. I took a blood test today too, after obsessing enough to call my Dr. and get myself in trouble for having unprotected BD before my first two periods. As I suspected, she didn’t have a reason for that.
For the last week and a half I’ve had period like symptoms but no period. SO the next hurdle to overcome is the prospect of Asherman’s. Dr did nothing to dissuade my fear of this. I’m so irritated. Particularly because as I was lying back to have the procedure done in Jan. she said to me “people will tell you there are some risks of scarring or infection, but don’t even think about it. Don’t even think about it.” But now it’s entirely possible? That was not informed consent. Particularly because I inquired as to the advantages and disadvantages of the various options for helping the miscarriage along. And my elation is just about squelched by my continuing frustration by my situation. PRAYING for AF. Luckily DH has been really behind me this whole time. I just hope it lasts. I have so much angst over getting pg again. I’d love to be on a schedule regular enough to direct him. But I can’t help but wish I was still going to have my baby come August.