I am proud to report that I did not pee on a stick or temp this morning! But by the time I got to work I was already losing my resolve. My symptoms were already pretty light and I'm just not feeling them this morning. I'm starting to think I might want that third beta... for reassurance. On the other hand, if it just barely doubles again, or doesn't double, I don't think I would be able to get through the weekend. So maybe I should stick to the plan I laid out yesterday.
In they way of symptoms, like I said, very light. I pee more often, barely. My boobs are sore and my nipples are usually sore, but not always. It really freaks me out when they're not. I felt more queasy yesterday than I have so far and this morning I felt back to normal - that also freaks me out. During my first pregnancy I would get really sharp shooting cramps but this time it's deeper, heavier, but more gentle ones. Hopefully that's a good sign.
I startle easily. I think it's because I'm more paranoid and on edge over this whole pregnancy thing. I'm so ultra protective, but then I get mad at myself for getting startled 'cause I worry that that could cause a problem. AAAGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!
Bring the nausea! Something! Please!
In other news, I have to figure out how to get out of a work happy hour with C and V today. They are SO on pregnancy watch and I've decided there is absolutely NO way I can go to the HH and not drink. NO way. I don't want to see the expressions of realization and smugness on their faces. I don't want to know that they think they know. Because even if they think they know they have absolutely no freaking idea what pregnancy is to me. How it feels. And it would irritate me if they presumed they had me figured out. Not to mention that if this pregnancy doesn't go well I don't want them to know I failed again. I don't want to internalize my own failure to produce a healthy child, I don't want their pity, all the usual reasons.
So because I can't go and not drink, that means I have to find a way to not go at all. Maybe I shall have a strategically placed call during that time. Maybe I'm supposed to meet DH for some xmas shopping. Don't know but I'm going to have to come up with something. Let the games begin.
14 years ago
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hahaha, i hope you succeed in getting out of HH. It's a week before Christmas! Something almost always comes up! I say hold off on the POAS and 3rd beta - only because I know it'll open up another can of worms for you to worry about - whether the result is good or bad. I am the exact same way. January will be here before you know it! Hang in there!
Symptoms usually pick up around week 6-7 so don't worry. (ha, Its surreal typing these words since I know I was a basket case at your stage)
RE the happy hour, any way to get there early and get a virgin drink and just nurse that through the evening, leaving early with some excuse or other?
Good luck getting out of HH. I don't blame you for not wanting to go. And don't stress over the symptoms--though I hope they come soon for the sake of your sanity!
I really didn't have ANY symptoms for a long time. Just get through the next couple of weeks. Once you see the heartbeat, look to the next milestone, the second trimester and so on. And I am OCD so I would get a third beta and obsess over it. I couldn't NOT know. But that is me ;-)! If it causes you more stress, then don't. It's your call. Good luck, I wish you the best.
Hang in there, you'll be nautious in no time :)
Go to your party and order a cranberry and sprite...worked for me and no one noticed.
Overall, I am just happy for you. I looked at your timeline and we both embarked on this journey around the same time. I hope that I will be following your lead very soon.
Hugs,
Andrea
www.persuitofourfairytale.blogspot.com
I didn't get any strong symptoms til 6 weeks with my son OR this pregnancy, then I had morning sickness all day with my son 6-17 wks and with this pregnancy 7 wks til present (still have it at 16 wks.)
I totally understand why you are nervous, but I bet you will be having symptoms in no time!
I went out for my birthday dinner before my bday with friends and I had stopped breastfeeding a few months before so I knew they all wondered why I wasn't drinking lol!
Totally understand why you want to skip HH!
Kelley
I agree with the previous commenters...it's really too soon for the symptoms to kick in. And don't forget that you may not have any symptoms. I really didn't have any at all, which was both a blessing and also incredibly nerve wracking. I won't tell you to relax because I know it's impossible, just know that I'm sending positive thoughts your way. Have a lovely weekend!
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