This is FMU, 5-10 minutes, 12dpo.
Barely there. That was acceptable at 10dpo but now it's 48hrs later and I'm really depressed about it. I've said before that for me a BFN would be better than a m/c. At least we'd be able to try again in two weeks. At least I could pour myself a nice glass of wine. But I can't do that now. I have to wait it out. I hate this - haven't I been through enough? Clearly not.
This has pretty much ruined my weekend. I told DH about it because he's been asking. I've been pouring over HPT series pictures on FF trying to tell myself that it's not over. That it's still too early for dark lines. HCG rises exponentially. Which means that at the beginning stages the numbers go up more slowly. Some of the pictures on FF back me up and some make me cry 'cause it all seems so impossible and overwhelming.
My temps are triphasic. I've never had that happen before, but it's happening now. My other symptoms, like the lines, are barely there and just like they have been for the past couple days. Exactly the same. Just like the lines.
Tomorrow marks the second of my dad's birthdays in a row at which I won't be drinking. I wish this time there was a better reason.
Today is the first day AF could arrive - I don't expect her to. I wish there was a better reason.
8 comments:
I completely see where you're coming from but try not to lose hope. For my first two early losses where I had low betas I didn't see anything at all until 12dpo. You're ahead of that already. And It is darker than 10dpo. This is why they say to wait to test but I never could either. When will you have your beta?
That's how mine looked 12dpo. Don't lose hope yet hon.
Also- addressing your fears of having to wait longer to try again if this is a m/c (which I hope and pray its not), i am pregnant from a conception that occurred two weeks after my miscarriage. My body took the miscarriage as a period and gave me the best cycle I ever had in my life on CD 14 like nothing ever happened.
But its positive and its still very early so don't lose hope. Wait until 14dpo.
thinking of you!
and I agree with meandbaby it is darker, at least from the pictures you've posted.
for 10dpo I had to hold the laptop to my nose, but this one is clear without having to do so.
You are still very much in the game!
Check this out: http://heylyss09.blogspot.com/2009/09/oh-my-god.html
It's my test at 16 dpo. That's 6 whole days from now, for you, and it still isn't very dark!
That looks similar to my FRER test at 12dpo and mine wasn't nice and really dark til FMU at 14dpo with both my pregnancies. Betas were 67 at 14dpo with my son and 83 14 dpo with this pregnancy (I am 15 weeks with a little girl.)
Is your beta on Monday at 14 dpo? If it is 50 and higher I would say that is a good start!Our doc said a 53 per rise and up is the norm, then it should start doubling soon after every 48-82 hrs.
Still hoping and praying this is it for you!
Kelley
Sorry I meant 48-72 hrs not 48-82 hrs.
Kelley
I'm crossing everything for you and keeping the faith. You are still in this!!!
Amazing news - congrats and I hope this is the beginning of much good news for you :)
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