Nineteen Weeks

How far along? 19w3d

Maternity clothes? Still just bottoms. When I first started making purchases I thought I was getting carried away - do I really need TWO pairs of pants and TWO skirts...for just a few months? But yes, I need them, particularly for work, and I'm glad I ordered more.

Stretch marks? No. I apply lotion occasionally.

Sleep? It's going ok. Hips still hurt on some days but its nice to be on my own bed again and the dogs seem to be adapting to their cush dog bed just fine.

Best moment this week? Finding out the gender, seeing the little guy with all his parts in order, his little arms and legs, kidneys, heart, his little profile, his spine. There is nothing like it. It's amazing how much he's grown in a few short weeks. Ok, we all know the weeks have been anything but "short" but you know what I mean.

Worst moment? Barely avoiding a car accident and then chastising myself for getting that close to being in an accident and then freaking out that slamming on the breaks may have caused some placental damage right after the anatomy u/s.

Movement? Still can't tell. I think I feel him. But I wouldn't be shocked if I'm mistaken.

Food cravings? Chocolate. Big time. Anything with cheese. Pizza still is a big draw. Nothing terribly exotic or exciting.

Gender? it's a little boy. We're so thrilled. Not that we wouldn't have been thrilled with a girl. It's just so much fun to know finally. Thanks for all of your sweet comments, they really mean so much.

What I miss? I still just miss not being such a neurotic control freak. I've actually changed my commute to avoid freeways since it's usually gridlock and stressful and I have a hybrid with carpool lane stickers so I'm always hopping through the lanes to get over to the left side and then have to hop back five miles later in time for my exit and I am just one giant stress ball the whole way. I changed to just taking "expressways" to work - it doesn't take any more time and it's so very peaceful and probably safer, although who knows. I also miss alcohol. I am in love with wine and I went to two parties this weekend and have a big easter celebration next weekend and a big work party coming up...all without my beloved glass of white wine. Not even a beer, although I did indulge in o'douls this weekend which was fun. It's SO worth it, but it's hard.

Weekly Wisdom: A friend told me this weekend that breastfeeding hurts. Like bad. I like her a lot but one of her personality traits is that she gives advice on pregnancy and parenting like only she knows the real deal. She did proceed to tell me that everyone's experience is different but insisted that it. would. hurt. I had never heard this before and appreciated the warning. I guess even if I'm one of the lucky ones, at least I'll appreciate it more.

Emotions: Alright. I can't keep the crazy down for long and I had one evening of sobbing over almost nothing but otherwise it's been ok. DH and I have been in a lot of little fights lately but we had a fabulous fight-free weekend and it was so nice, I'm really feeling good about life lately.